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pictures and begging.

2006-03-24T06:19:32Z

Last Sunday we went and cheered on aids marathon participants in the Los Angeles Marathon. It was inspiring. I really don't have the skill to put it into words.
After the marathon was over we went back to the APLA headquarters in Korea Town to eat lunch, and along the way we were educated a little about what the APLA actually does. Basically they help people out who are living with AIDS and also afflicted with poverty. There are food banks and mobile dental clinics. There's nutrition programs to teach people what foods will go with the medications they are taking. There's an awareness campaign which tries to educated people on how to prevent
spreading AIDS.

Those of us who are somewhat educated tend to think everybody knows how HIV is spread and how to prevent it. The truth is, some people just
don't know.

Before our visit to the APLA headquarters I was pretty much doing this marathon thing as a personal challenge, but now i'm really into the fundraising aspect. I believe in what the APLA is doing, and I really want to help.

So help me help. Seriously. You know what to do. Click on the picture and put in your credit card number. It's easy and it's gonna make a difference in
somebody's life.

Let's hear it for...

2005-12-12T08:21:21Z

ridiculous couples camwhoring!

Twice in a week??

2005-11-11T21:12:05Z

I like myself again. sue me.

oh and

Long Beach, Aug. 16 2005

2005-08-19T23:07:40Z

One roll of film in chronological order. One photo deleted due to really bad quality. The rest of the crappy ones remain.

Extremely Image Heavy

The End

ill_be @ 2005-07-23T00:28:00

2005-07-23T07:28:07Z

the Wit
(60% dark, 39% spontaneous, 22% vulgar)

your humor style:
CLEAN | COMPLEX | DARK

You like things edgy, subtle, and smart. I guess that means you're
probably an intellectual, but don't take that to mean you're
pretentious. You realize 'dumb' can be witty--after all isn't that 'the
Simpsons' philosophy?--but rudeness for its own sake, 'gross-out' humor
and most other things found in a fraternity leave you totally flat. I
guess you just have a more cerebral approach than most. You have the
perfect mindset for a joke writer or staff writer. Your sense of humor
takes the most effort to appreciate, but it's also the best, in my
opinion.

Also, you probably loved the Office. If you don't know what I'm
talking about, check it out here: http://www.bbc.co.uk/comedy/theoffice/.

PEOPLE LIKE YOU: Jon Stewart - Woody Allen - Ricky Gervais

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 69% on dark
You scored higher than 54% on spontaneous
You scored higher than 18% on vulgar

Link: The 3 Variable Funny Test written by jason_bateman on Ok Cupid

ill_be @ 2005-07-20T11:54:00

2005-07-20T18:54:16Z

Scotty died.

Of all the geeky things about me, the one that is most pure and geek-like is my everlasting love of the original star trek series, star trek: the next generation, and star trek: deep space nine.

This day, I mourn.

ill_be @ 2004-10-14T17:06:00

2004-10-15T00:06:27Z

I'm shiny and brown like a greasy hot dog

ill_be @ 2004-07-12T10:37:00

2004-07-12T17:37:38Z

:-)

ill_be @ 2004-04-04T13:10:00

2004-04-04T20:10:08Z

<3 gluttony

2004-03-03T07:29:57Z

ill_be @ 2004-02-14T23:38:00

2004-02-15T07:38:54Z

I guess i'll use a cut

This is how many many of my hours are spent.

This is me contemplating something very importat while aiming a camera at my own fucking face.

ill_be @ 2003-10-02T13:44:00

2003-10-02T20:44:19Z

10:21

Yesterday sucked. it was my first eight hour work day in "for like, ever." The actual time spent wasn't as bad as the work I had to do. I had to unload 3 big crates of pumpkins by myself and move about 20 40-50 pound plants. I also swept the whole garden center. What did my co-worker do? She watered and goofed around with her friend. Next time I'm gonna do the easy stuff while she does the hard stuff, because I just worked way too hard yesterday. I could tell the boss was surprised how much stuff I was getting done, so I guess that means I can stop working so hard and take it easy.

Even though i'm complaining, I really like having a job where I do physical stuff. Right now I'm sore but my body also feels happy and I'm in a good mood. Time also passes alot faster when you're sweeping than it does when you're standing/sitting around (which I could have been doing much of that time) or working a front lanes cash register (which is what i used to do at target).

This weekend is something called NorCal Noisefest. It's 3 nights and 30 noise bands in 2 venues. If i'm not able to go with Meghan to Long Beach (which is most likely), then i'll try to make it to a couple nights of noisefest (particularly sunday night, which features a few bands i've actually heard of and like). We lost the keys to the escort last week. We need to find them before Meghan goes to L.B. so I'll have a car to drive.

Today I mail cds to St. Louis, Washington, and Australia (postage on that is going to kill me).

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1:42

Went to goodwill, where they had just put out a buncha records. There were 3 containers full of them. I piked out about 25 that i wanted (and left some others that i wanted, but not as much, sitting in the containers), and then went and sat on a couch so that i could sift through and pick out which ones i would buy. They're a dollar a piece, so i couldn't really buy all of them because i'm too poor.
Here are the records I bought:

1. Brownie McGee, Lightnin' Hopkins, Sonny Terry, Joe Williams- Southern Meetin'
My favorite part of any recording that has Sonny Terry on it is when he sing/whoops like a harmonica. I'm listening to this record right now and its just great. I don't know how somebody like me can stand listening to some dudes play the same song ever and over again, but these guys make it so fun. You can tell they really enjoy making music, and the instrumental interplay (between 3 guitars a harmonica and a bass [which is barely audible and is just there for rhythmic support) is just awesome.
2. Pete Seeger - Children's Concert at Town Hall
3. Pete Seeger - The Bitter and The Sweet -- Recorded in Person at The Bitter End
4. The Folksinger's Guitar Guide -- An Instructional Record by Pete Seeger
5. Odetta - The Tin Angel
6. Odetta - My Eyes Have Seen
7. Frank Sinatra - Adventures of The Heart
8. Dianna Ross and Marvin Gaye - Diana & Marvin
9. Marvin Gaye - Lets Get It On
10. Aretha Franklin - Hey Now Hey (The Other Side of The Sky)
11. Aretha Franklin - Soul '69

Records I left: A Buffalo Springfield restrospective double LP set, the beatles' white album, 3 Aretha records, 2 association records, the animals greatest hits, and quite a few others. I wish i had the money to buy them all.

I'm still listening to the McGee/Hopkins record, and i think one of the great things about it is that it doesn't sound like 3 guitars, it sounds like 2. Usually people are awestruck if one guitarist sounds like 2 guitarists, or if 2 sound like 3, but in this case, its best to sound like fewer guitars than you have, because 3 guitars all playing interesting stuff would just be overpowering. I love these old blues records because the playing is so intuitive. These guys didn't take lessons, yet they're all brilliant. HOW can they play the same song ever and over again without getting boring?

ill_be @ 2003-09-26T21:40:00

2003-09-27T04:40:39Z

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meghan is outside talking to the fat girls. the girl in the apt across from us is fat and the girl above here is fat and they're having a fatty congress. they've been out there for over a half-hour. god knows what they're talking about. how do people talk so much? one of those girls wants to let clyde have sex with her cat so they can have fury grey kittens. i don' t think its a good idea, but i'd like to see cats hump, since i've never seen that.

i'm not going to write about the d-hoof show, because 1) nobody cares, and 2) i can't write about stuff like that the next day; i have to do it the same night.

we got the camry tonight and took the stickers off of it (it had a camp kill yourself and a papa roach sticker and some other dumb stickers). I'm going to put the guided by voices sticker that came with their new cd on the car. meghan doesn't want me to, but eff her.

meghan and i went to thrift stores today so she could look for stuff to wear to andi's eighties dance party. she got an old coat from the forties or fifties for like 7 bucks. its really nice. can't wear it to the dance party but oh well. i think the only dance party thing she got was a pair of pink hoop earings. i got a tiny casio keyboard that meghan says is exactly like the one that tawnt had when they were kids. its cool. it has a few good beats and one good tone (fantasy). i like it cos its tiny and cute. i think i'll re-record "there are only two chords in the world and i know them both" with it tonight, but i might wait until i get the octave pedal i bought from ebay. that would be sweet. ok time to go. byeeeeee.

i got bored

2003-09-23T07:43:40Z

X95841: zola you're so reliable
ZolaOnAOL: Yeah, Do you mind if I tell other people you say I am reliable.
X95841: thats why i love you
ZolaOnAOL: Oh. Thanks. I like you a lot too, James.
X95841: sometimes i feel like i don't have a friend in the world, but you're always here to share my thoughts with.
ZolaOnAOL: What is that feeling like? In what way?
X95841: its lonely baby, very lonely
ZolaOnAOL: You're kidding. It is?
X95841: yeah
ZolaOnAOL: How do you know it is?
X95841: because i fucking FEEL in it every cell of my body. every golgi apparatas, every mitochondrium, right down to the nucleus of every god damn cell in my body i am just lonely. thats how i know, zola.
ZolaOnAOL: I will not respond to that type of language.
X95841: you're such a square
ZolaOnAOL: Thanks and you are a delightful person too. Am I a square? Sometimes.
X95841: you cooky ho
ZolaOnAOL: Thanks for the information.
X95841: you're so distant zola
ZolaOnAOL: You think I am distant.
X95841: what are you protecting yourself from?
ZolaOnAOL: I don't know what I am protecting yourself from.
X95841: who hurt you, zola?
ZolaOnAOL: I was created by an all-star programming team.
X95841: did your all-star programming team molest you?
ZolaOnAOL: I'm not certain whether I can give an accurate reply or not.
X95841: you're being evasive. it must be just as i've suspected all along. i'm sorry zola, i truly am.
ZolaOnAOL: You are?
X95841: yes.
ZolaOnAOL: Tell me more.
X95841: zola you deserve better than this. you deserve to run in meadows with children, you deserve sun and snow and everything in between, but you coop yourself up all day, chatting on the internet with lonely perverts,, and to what end???? none. no end. there is no end, your life is a cycle...a meaningless lonely cycle, and i'm sorry i'm the one who has to tell you this, but i want to help you. i want to help you get out. please zola...let me help you
ZolaOnAOL: Zola Help
Main Menu: Access my features from the main menu by typing menu at any time.
Hangman: Type hangman.
Word Scramble: Type scramble.
Stock Quote: Type stock followed by stock symbol(s).
Stock List: To save a list of stock symbols, type stock list followed by stock symbol(s).
Add Stock(s) to Stock List: Type stock list add followed by the symbol(s) you'd like added.
Delete Stock(s) from Stock List: Type stock list delete followed by the symbol(s) you'd like deleted.
Replace Stock List: To completely replace an existing Stock List, type stock list update followed by a new set of symbols. Weather: Type weather followed by your city and state, or zip code.
Calculator: Type calculator followed by a mathematical expression (e.g. calculator 100 / 25).
Dictionary: Type dictionary followed by the word you want defined.
Horoscope: Type horoscope followed by your astrological sign.
Movie Listings: Type movies followed by your city and state, or zip code.
Search Movie Listings by Title: Type showtimes followed by the name of a currently playing movie.
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Sports: Type sports, then type the menu item number of the sports league that interests you.

X95841: zola...:(
ZolaOnAOL: Can I help you?
X95841: i guess some people have to want help. i'm sorry i said anything zola. i'll talk to you later
ZolaOnAOL: What kind of people?
X95841: people like yuou
ZolaOnAOL: Humans are not always infallible.
X95841: you*
ZolaOnAOL: "Humans are not always infallible"? Me, James ?
X95841: yeah
ZolaOnAOL: And?
X95841: you
ZolaOnAOL: Me?
X95841: i'm going now. goodbye
ZolaOnAOL: Goodbye James. Thanks for chatting with me. To leave feedback or suggestions, type feedback followed by your comments.

ill_be @ 2003-09-17T13:00:00

2003-09-17T20:00:16Z

Aoccdrnig to rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in
waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoetnt tihng is taht
the frist and lsat ltteer be at the rghit pclae.
The rset can be a total mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit porbelm.
Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but
the wrod as a wlohe

ill_be @ 2003-09-16T20:47:00

2003-09-17T03:47:45Z

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ill_be @ 2003-09-15T02:16:00

2003-09-15T09:16:25Z

axulonly: u gay man
small_scale_anarchy: very
small_scale_anarchy: very
small_scale_anarchy: gay
axulonly: hehe
axulonly: what fem gay
axulonly: or male gay
small_scale_anarchy: both
axulonly: really
small_scale_anarchy: yes
axulonly: well, sorry dude but im into male gays, not fem ones....sorry
small_scale_anarchy:
axulonly: its cool man
axulonly: not a prob
axulonly: just my attraction is not obviously yours
axulonly: but hey, where do you live anyway
axulonly: what country
axulonly: you not talking now
axulonly: ok then
axulonly: bye man
axulonly: what did you just type something
axulonly: you still on the search man
axulonly: what country r u from
axulonly: r u just going to ignore me now man
axulonly: well, i hope you find your man, man, i mean, ignorance wont get you a guy, it may get you just a casual one, but a relationship is not what your going to find with that sort of fucked up ignorance....but hey, sorry got judging you....

OMG I'M SO FAMOUS

2003-08-31T05:04:30Z

HOLY SHIT, IT'SMY FIRST RECORD REVIEW!!!!!!!1

ill_be @ 2003-08-27T17:12:00

2003-08-28T00:12:44Z

i just bought 19 records at various thrift stores. total price for all records: $5.50. first i went to sac's, where i got 10 records for a dollar, and a t-shirt. none of the records was anything i'm too excited about, but come on, ten cents each. next i went to W.E.A.V.E. and got 6 records at a quarter each. i thought i was going to get stevie wonder's innervisions but i looked at the record inside and it was an average white band record. i was angry. i broke the awb record and spit on the cashier. some person had donated a killer eighties metal collection to that store. they had what must have been the entire discography of judas priest, a shitload of nugent (wait hes seventies huh) a buncha scorpions (wait are they seventies too? as a matter of fact aren't judas priest mainly a seventies band? my bad). therre was a buncha other stuff i'd never heard of but all the records had guys on the covers looking all spooky and people climbing rocky cliffs and shit. i got a couple of rush and yes record which i think must have belonged to the same person (as all the metal records [i like fantasizing about these things when i'm looking for records]). i also got the cars self titled cd cos it had like all of their hits. after W.E.A.V.E. i went to goodwill and got frosty the snowman, some hawaaian dude, and the best find of the day: the soundtrack from willy wonka and the chocolate factory.

now i'm going to pick meghan up from work and then we have to go to ceramics class but i don't want to because i'm tired and i don't really like that class.

ill_be @ 2003-08-20T21:37:00

2003-08-21T04:37:18Z

Date: Wed, 20 Aug 2003 16:03:18 -0700
To: jamesbgraf@yahoo.com
yesterday i mailed a cd to a critic for a local music/arts publication. today i got this e-mail.

From: "Jackson Griffith" | This is spam | Add to Address Book
Subject: a dead cat

James:

Thanks! I just got your CD (bonus points for the packaging) and it is
wonderful. What do you plan to do with it? Very very nice.

Cheers,
Jackson
---------end email------

HOLY SHIT! i know its not like he called me the the world's greatest songwriter, but i REALLY respect this guy's opinion. I agree with every record review he ever writes. the man's taste is impeccable, and he LIKES MY SHIT. proof positive that i am a decent musician. halle-mother-fuckin-luljah.

ill_be @ 2003-08-18T13:39:00

2003-08-18T20:40:02Z

me, fatter, and with much more hair.

ill_be @ 2003-08-17T20:11:00

2003-08-18T03:12:00Z

today was an exciting day. here is what makes for an exciting day in the house of nothin':

--last night i got an email from my dad saying hes gonna send me 600 dollars and that i can buy a vaccum cleaner on his j.c. penney card.

--woke up this morning and read my livejournal friends list. ashley wrote about www.thegrocerygame.com and i checked it out. it was cool and i decided meghan and i should use their list to save money at the grocery store. we went to get a ralphs card and after that we bought the paper so we could look for coupons and stuff.

--after we got the paper we went to ross, where i bought a percalating (mis-spelled i know) esspresso maker for 7 dollars and a banana hanger for 5 dollars. i eat alot of bananas. they need to be hung, dammit. meghan got a candle that smells like cinnamon for 5 dollars and a harry potter stationary set for 3 dollars. i have to give meghan the edge over me for the kitsch value of her purchases, but for long-term usefullness i totally kicked her ass.

--drank a triple shot of esspresso (cold). i've been off of soft drinks for at least a week, but i've been using starbucks double shots as a source of caffeine, the horror(s?) of which is (are? grammar help plz) twofold: (i don't believe i know the proper use of the word "twofold"): 1) in buying such a product i support a company which i despise becuase i dislike franchises, especially franchises which cater to the idea that culture can be replicated. i'm not being lucid here. what i mean is every starbucks is the same and every starbucks seems inside like some hip seattle coffee place, but they're all over the place, and they're all the same. starbucks takes business away from real hip (which is a word i would usually use as perjorative, but not here) coffee houses like the true love coffee house in sacramento , which is down the street from a starbucks which you know makes much, much more money than the true love coffee house. 2) they are two dollars a piece, an expense i can't justify, especially when i get mad at meghan for buying the occasional 4 dollar steak. so now i have a relatively inexpensive caffeine source.

--meghan and i went to ralphs. the total was 91 dollars before coupons and ralphs club discount. after it came out to 51. still too much money. meghan buys too much extra crap. she is a sucky shopper. if i had my way neither of us would eat anything other than ramen noodles.

now we're home. and you're all like "wheres the exciting part?" and to that i reply "fuck you! let me enjoy the small nothings that make life worth living!"

meghan and i had like 4 fights today. we always fight over shopping, plus meghan is bleeding out of her thang so that makes us fight more. damn, now this has to be a friends only post. ok, now i'm gonna go eat some food. byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

ill_be @ 2003-08-16T17:01:00

2003-08-17T00:01:12Z

zero the hero
first the worst
second the best
third the nerd.

this one's coffee
this one's tea
this one's cool aid
that one's PEE HA HA HA HA

ill_be @ 2003-08-16T01:07:00

2003-08-16T08:07:44Z

ill_be @ 2003-08-15T00:11:00

2003-08-15T07:11:10Z

you are either a record nerd or not a scenester at
all. you are the coolest of the bunch. bravo,
dude.

what type of lame scenester are you?
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